Gender to be rated: I really don't care.
Height: 5'1 - 5'2
Hair: Long, thin, straight and blonde. I keep it braided, because if I don't, it turns into a monster.
"Do you fear death?"
Sometimes. Dying can be scary, and I know dead things creep me out. Death, though? I don't know. I can't say there's anything to really fear, per say. I mean, everyone dies, why should I be special or freak out about it?
"Are you overly concerned about being the best or competition with others?"
I'm highly competitive. It gets ugly, sometimes, because there's always someone better than me and I tend to forget that more often than not. It boosts my ego to compete and win, but when I lose, ... I'm really not a nice person to be around.
"Do you often get afraid?"
I'm a little edgy and paranoid, but I can't say I'm necessarily afraid that often. I used to be afraid of lightning, but then I came to terms with the randomness and nature of it. I just knew the lightning was out to get me. The same with driving: I just know something's going to fall out of my car, or I'm going to run out of gas, or someone's going to jump in front of my truck, or I'm going to get lost. I'd have to say it's a pessimistic lack of self confidence more than a fear, though.
"Do you depend on others or do you prefer to work solo?"
I prefer to work solo. I have a hard time working with people, because I expect them to do their best and I hope they expect me to do my best. However, they very rarely do anything, let alone their best, and they almost never expect me to be able to keep up. It's annoying, really. I think I get more done, more efficiently, when working alone. I only have myself to impress or fail.
"Do you have a large Ego or are you overly Arrogant?"
Oh, heavens no. Egos and arrogance never work out for me. I can cope an attitude once in a while, but it always ends in disaster. Someone will get hurt or someone will say something they really shouldn't. It's a bad situation.
"Do you prefer to be directly in the chaos or somewhere on the outside?"
Yes. I like to be in the middle of things so that I can set myself on the outside and take a look at all of the pieces of the puzzle. Standing on the outside of the fray, I feel useless, but I feel like I'm accomplishing something by diving right in -- it's experience, if nothing else.
"Do you thrive in chaos or would you prefer peace?"
Chaos. Peace is nice, but I get bored and tend to eat too much and sleep too much when things are peaceful. It's bad for my psyche.
"How do you feel about love and romance?"
I think the best love and romance can be found in the weirdest places. I believe in love at first sight, but I don't necessarily believe in happily ever after romances. Time comes and goes and people change. I'm more of a loyalty and dedication or complimentary partnership person than a romantic.
"Do you feel sad or guilty at the suffering of others?"
Only if I could have done something to change the outcome. For instance, I feel incredibly guilty when someone puts down an animal while I've still got room and time to adopt them, but I felt no remorse removing the tenants of my new house when they failed to recognize the deadline my boyfriend gave them. If I get into an argument with someone and a friend gets the backlash of it, I'll feel sorry for them, but if they instigated it, I don't feel bad at all knowing they're getting an earful.
"Does the idea of killing someone strike you at all?"
It depends on the scenario. I, personally, at the risk of sound homicidal, think it would be a very unique and memorible experience to kill someone. I'd hate to think of the reprocussions, though. I wouldn't want it to be an accident and I most definitely wouldn't want it to be premeditated. I think it would have to be a life or death situation. Otherwise, it's not worth the paperwork or therapy.
"Rate your mood on a scale of 1-10, 1 being thoroughly depressed, and 10 being happy and joyful."
Probably a four. I'm not generally a happy or chipper person. I have my giddy and giggly moments, but they've been few and far between with the general stresses of life. I have medical problems and I just adopted a cat that has similar medical problems. My boyfriend just bought us a house, and that has stressed us both out physcially, financially and mentally. I'm also in between schooling and a new job, and my car just broke down. I've been fairly depressed, but I think it's a stress thing. I stress a lot. The little things eat at me.
"Rate your daily energy and activeness on a scale of 1-10, 1 being sluggish and tired, 10 being extremely hyper."
3. It's a mix of stress and medical issues. My lungs don't difuse oxygen to my blood stream, so no matter how hyper I am, I can't really act on it without massive headaches or exhaustion. :x
"Do you consider yourself, Calm, Chaotic or Somewhere In Between?"
I consider myself pretty chaotic, but it's all in my head. I'd say I come across as calm: I've had a few people tell me that if I were any more calm I'd be comatose. LOL
"Are you prone to violence?"
The urges definitely spark up more than they should, but I never act out on them. Some people just need to be slapped around a little in order to wake up. :x
"Do you trust others?"
Not really. People tend to let me down a lot, so I have a tendency to make them build up trust.
"Pick One: "In association with others I am.... A. Aloof. B.Very Social C. Avoidant D. Neutral"
Somewhere between Neutral and Avoidant. I have no problems hanging out with friends or going to classes, but if I don't have to pick up the phone or go hang out, I'll definitely opt to stay home and watch TV or nap.
"Would you prefer doing something for a righteous cause or for personal gain?"
It really depends on what it is. I mean, what good is saving humanity if they're just going to go build up nukes and slap eachother around? I'd much rather do something that I know would have an impact or effect on people, even if it's just close friends. I guess that would be personal gain, because I'd want it to be memorable more than righteous.
"Are you overly shy, very bold or somewhere in between?"
Somewhere in between. I'm not a social person, but I'm not shy. I've been known to walk around Wal-Mart with a bra on my head or to randomly walk up to people and try to strike up conversations based on what characters are on their t-shirts. I wouldn't walk up to someone and ask them if they want to go out ofr a cup of coffee, though.
"Shortly summarize your goals in life:"
I would like to finish college, get a nice job and live comfortably with my boyfriend and my cat until I can come up with some new goal to add to the list.
"What is your greatest fear in life?"
Failure. I have this voice in the back of my head saying that I'll never finish school and I'll never get a good job. I'll be homeless and starving on some street with a cat. I'm also pretty damned afraid of having children. I'm not sure what I would do in that situation.
"What is your greatest goal in life?"
Oh, probably something along the lines of living and inspiring others to keep living.
"Would you call yourself a Megalomaniac?"
"Do you prefer constant attention?"
No, I like some alone time. I don't like it when people hang over my shoulder when I'm doing something creative like writing or drawing. I really don't like it when they continually ask questions about what I'm doing. I do love the continual affection my boyfriend and cat shower me with, though. :)
"How important are material objects to you?"
Not very. I have some things I can't bring myself to throw away, but if life demanded it, I could get up and walk out the door without packing.
"Chose an Obsession: A. Love , B. Power , C. Wealth , D. Peace/Life E. Chaos/Death "
Somewhere between D and E. Existence would be closer, I think.
"Choose a level of mental stability on a scale of 1-10 , 1 being thoroughly insane, 10 being very sane."
6. I'm pretty level headed, but I have issues. As long as you don't prod too deep, I'm a pretty stable person.
"Briefly classify yourself, give a stereotype or social "Group" to place yourself in."
Starving Artist or Nerd.
What's your favourite FF game? Why?
Either Final Fantasy VI or Final Fantasy X. I love the characters and the storyline for both games. FFVI was awe inspiring and amazing when I first played it. I wanted to grow up and be Celes. I could connect with everyone. (Except Gogo, what's up with him?) FFX just seemed to capture all of the elements I liked about VI, but with prettier packaging and voice acting!
What's your favourite FF character? Why?
I like Auron, because he's so strong and mature. I like Celes and Beatrix because they're tragic and deadly. If I had to pick a favorite, though, I'd have to go with something like Mog or Interceptor.
Least favourite FF game? Why?
I really couldn't get into the FF Adventures. They were messy and all over the place.
Least favourite FF character? Why?
Seymour. OMG, just frickin' die already!